living the life that I want to

Sunday, July 08, 2007

after reading what soo posted, I'm not afraid anymore

"i'm not afraid because God will be there with us.

as i typed that out, i realise....... i've really surrendered everything to God's hands. i'm not scared anymore. i'm not afraid of anything bad that will happen anymore. i've left everything to God's hands, this last burst is in His holy hands now. together we can make miracles."

thanks soo.

For the past few days, my heart has been weighed down by the prospect of Nationals. I just didn't know why I was so nervous. After all these 8 years of competing in the National Schools Swimming Championships, I'd expect myself to be more acclimatized to competition scenarios, being able to control my nerves and just "ALL OUT" during the competition. But this year, it feels different.... I've often blamed myself for bad trainings, blamed the wind for choppy waters, but worst of all, I kinda left God out of the picture, until now.

It's tough feeling so helpless against the waves and against all the other boats. But I've been praying about this for the past few days and I'm glad that God has spoken to me in his own miraculous ways...

He replied, "You of little faith, why are you so afraid?" Then he got up and rebuked the winds and the waves, and it was completely calm.
Matthew 8:26 NIV

Yesterday was our first and well, our last training at Bedok Reservoir before Nationals. Of course it felt weird rowing in a totally alien environment. No shade, no trees to shelter us from the wind. Before we got into our boats and prepared to push off from the pontoon, I said a little prayer: Lord, I commit this training into your hands.

Somehow it felt different, to be riding on the waves with Him. To know that he's in the boat with you.

"Oh God, please grant us the stability and power..."

That was all I could remember saying.
We're prepared for this k4, and only by God's strength, we'll fly on Tuesday.

"God put us where we are so we can glorify His name by rowing with faith, with complete trust in His ultimate strength." thanks javine.

RAFFLES ROW.

7:29 pm